"The time has come, the walrus said, to talk of many things, of shoes and ships and ceiling wax, of cabbages and kings and why the sea is boiling hot and whether pigs have wings."

This quote reminds me of two movies. Harriet the Spy (who I always secretly wanted to be) and Alice in Wonderland. Growing up, I rented Harriet the Spy, Spice World, and every Mary-Kate and Ashley movie ever made from this small movie rental store in Wilmore. I always wanted to be a writer like Harriet, not to make everyone in school hate me, but I wanted to be that creative. She was so independent and interesting. I always wanted to dress just like Mary-Kate in every movie they were in and well I just enjoyed the Spice Girls movie..haha.

I want to write a book, more than I can explain. I also want my degree, be the best mom, win roughly $10,000 from the lottery (which won't happen unless I actually play..lol) to pay bills and have money in savings. These are things I think about on a daily basis and I think I make myself so anxious about all of them, that it eats me alive. I love Kingston more than anything, but I wish I had my life together now that he's here. I wish, for him, that I had my degree and made enough money to give him everything he will ever want. I know God has a plan for me and this was obviously part of his plan and for that I am forever grateful, but I just wanted to be able to provide the way I should for him. I know if I had that job though, I wouldn't be able to start working at the daycare and be with him all day, everyday, so maybe that was the rest of God's plan for now and I know I'll finish my degree soon, but I just feel stuck, living paycheck to paycheck and never being able to get ahead.

I feel somewhat depressed, and have the feeling of having a lot of anxiety because of all these things. I just feel stuck when it comes to my job and parts of my life, but my son sure makes my days and nights so much better! :)

Things I dont want to forget about Kingston at 2 months!

-He grabs my shirt and/or necklace when he's trying to fall asleep
-He will pull himself up and stand with locked knees when he's holding your fingers
-He grabs his hair when he's sleepy and can't fall asleep
-He SMILES! :)
-He loves his soft UK football
-He chews his fist (prolly trying to suck his thumb)